July 3rd, 2015

Things have been kinda crazy. I put Nimbus on SoundCloud a couple days ago to show mom… and now it has 6 millions streams? Record labels have been reaching out and Mom and Dad have been looking for a lawyer before we talk to them. A few news stations and magazines have even been reaching out, but it’s kind of scary because we don’t know how they even got dad’s email. Not really sure where this could go anyways and def don’t even want to start getting my hopes up.. we know how that goes.

Everyone is acting so weird these past few days though. A month ago Alex was talking to Maddie about me, but now she wont stop messaging me and making muscal.ly’s to my song. Even the girls who I think run the school confessions page posted something nice about me. I’m kinda afraid to post anything now that thousands of strangers have started following me. Some of them are kind of mean though? I’m used to ignoring comments like that but there’s been a storm of love and hate so I’ve kind of stopped looking. I don’t get it though, it’s make song that blew up, so why is everybody else so affected? I don’t know how to feel about so many people hearing my lyrics either, it feels like they mean less to me now than when they were only mine. I can tell Mom and Dad are nervous too, Mom’s been stress cleaning and Dad has been on the phone for days straight. This feels like a dream, but it will probably only last a few more days I think.

September 17th, 2015

My album comes out tomorrow… I can’t believe I’m saying that. I have to get ready to go to the release event Time+Space is throwing for me. They have been really nice but dad has still been arguing with them about how much pressure they put on me to make this album quickly. I’m a little bit nervous nobody is going to listen to it or really events wants it, but I guess I’m not really used to anybody wanting to listen anyways. They kind of just did.

I wont be in school next week because I have to fly to California after a few days here. I am gonna be doing interviews on the news which dad has also been arguing with the label about. I am just really scared and don’t really think I have anything to tell them, anything I wanted to say is in my music. I would rather sing alone into a mic than tell the whole word live on tv. They say its really important for my first album though. They say if this does my next contract will be for 5 albums not just 3 again.

Everybody at school wanted to come to the release party tonight but I ended up only inviting like 20 of them. They’ve all been bothering me to hear some of the music but I am not supposed to let anyone outside of Time+Space hear it. I did play a little bit for May though, she is one of the only people that has not been weird to me. She actually told me she didn’t like Nimbus, but she’s always been really honest with me I think that’s why we are such good friends.